Since I'm currently in a situation where I'm out only to my wife, my normal dress is more or less androgynous - women's Levi's, a T-shirt of some sort, girl sneakers, girl undergarments. I work at home, so sometimes I'll switch to a more feminine blouse, but because my kids often drop by without much, if any, warning, that's the extent of my getting dolled up lately. But I was sort of ok with that. I'm on my hormones, feeling basically femme most of the time, though sort of in a princess-locked-in-a-tower sort of way. It isn't ideal, but I felt like it was ok enough.
But then today, with my wife out of town on business, one kid out of town on spring break, and the other one at work for sure, I decided to doll up a bit. Went to the trouble of putting on a little bit of makeup, put on a bra that pushed my little boobs up rather than squishing them flat, and a nice spring-ish dress and sandals. I've been working in this outfit most of today now, though I'm going to have to change soon to go coach. What's surprised me is how much more comfortable and happy I feel. Sure, it could be coincidence, but even though I'm basically in girl clothes every day, there's something about letting my femininity really open up that makes me almost giddy. Not totally unexpected, but still somewhat unexpected. I had thought that when I finally transitioned, I'd probably mostly wear my usual jeans and T's but with a real bra instead of a too-small sports bra. Now, I'm wondering if maybe I'm more likely to be one of those women who always dress smartly and look like they're going to work or coming from work, even if they're in the grocery store at 11pm.
Kind of fun to think about.
(picture is not me)
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